I look out and see the world is in pain and suffering. I’ve found reaching out into the world doesn’t stop the suffering, it only adds my pain to the mix. So I turn inside myself where the world has trouble reaching me. As I go deeper and deeper into myself, I find there are aspects of the world which I just can’t escape.
The first aspect is the circumstances of my birth. These circumstances keep calling to me to be reborn again and again into a situation I like to think I have out grown. I no longer am angry with my family for teaching me the lessons I needed to learn because anger would only bring me back to repeat these lessons again. I now say to my biological family, ”It’s been real and it’s been nice but it hasn’t been real nice.”
The second aspect of the world I can’t seem to get away from is an evil which has been stalking me for many years now. By evil I mean a destructive force which has become stronger by being passed down from one generation to the next. Just recently this evil has followed me into the depths of my soul where there was nowhere to hide and I had to deal with it. So with one hand firmly in Gods’ hand, I reached out with my other hand and touched this evil with the sword of truth. This touch weakened the beast to the point where it keeps it’s distance from me now but I am still aware of it’s intense anger towards me.
Another aspect of the world I haven’t been able to entirely shake off is the economic monster. He has ravished me, body and soul for years and years no matter how far into myself I go. But lately I have held him at bay to the extent that the pain he inflicts is tolerable. At times I find there are aspects to this monster I enjoy. One just has to be careful when dealing with him.
And lastly there are beings, human and animal, who I nurture, heal and protect. These beings I take into my heart and love and try to create a new world where pain and suffering aren’t the main motivating forces.